Seconds Passing

If my death came at dawn
And swollen stones of passion
Raged no more
Would I be the reason You killed me?

Are my prayers answered
When I don't ask?
Because I know everything mattered
Once it passed.

There's an itch in my chest
Scratching at my heart
Raw and bleeding it keeps me
Too awake to rest.

Keep me here Keep me here
Not too far away Not too far away
Me in You I don't want
But You in Me
Stay with me
Please don't take me
I don't want you I don't want you
I want me I want me
Perpetual sunset let me lie
Your invitation I will deny.

First Love ( To Ben )

you have grown so old, so far from me
your eyes aged in sunset, mine in sunrise
we lye on the same horizon just one world around
yet no courage within us will swim to what once we both found
i miss you
the way you understood me
the way we were young inside each other new
the way we cried each other from out our pasts
from under snow to burning sun we rose from our pain
two separate deserts we walk through each others minds
my heart turns my eyes to rain
as i walk in sunlight you lye awake in the night
my mind becomes lethargic with melancholy
in my blackest skies you still shine through my sight
you wake my sleep beside each new lover
at the moonlight i stare
and it haunts me because
i know you're still there.