vent a bit

>you moved to the edge of a deathly world.
from the cliff of the old desert your anger burns to me
each sunset reaching my regret, it glares and i can't look away
i was scared, i was scared!
i hated everything in my world then
in your loving hate i hid
a summer night without sheets, to a frozen morning on the subway leaving
3 months lasts years for you and me
makes us escape through time zones and oceans,
man and woman i know
She must have had hair like mine and his voice so boyish like yours, trail off
i hear echoes of your tones
your trembles behind your strength
why did you fool me with your stoic hand?
Why did i grieve you before i ran?
did we lose to religion or disbelief?
what hell defeated us?
I'm so tired of this in me!
there's nothing for me to know.
i know you died at me
your apathy even worse
no way to justify , rationalize or see you now
age took your face and now the lover you hate is the blank page
she pays you to drip your ink upon her, write her off
STOP
I wasn't done!
i wasn't done!
i miss your heart
i promised something,
i'm sorry
i didn't discard you, i loved you
your eyes killed me
i needed more
i needed you i needed you.
5000 milesi loved you.
i didn't wait
now i pay