Seconds Passing

If my death came at dawn
And swollen stones of passion
Raged no more
Would I be the reason You killed me?

Are my prayers answered
When I don't ask?
Because I know everything mattered
Once it passed.

There's an itch in my chest
Scratching at my heart
Raw and bleeding it keeps me
Too awake to rest.

Keep me here Keep me here
Not too far away Not too far away
Me in You I don't want
But You in Me
Stay with me
Please don't take me
I don't want you I don't want you
I want me I want me
Perpetual sunset let me lie
Your invitation I will deny.

First Love ( To Ben )

you have grown so old, so far from me
your eyes aged in sunset, mine in sunrise
we lye on the same horizon just one world around
yet no courage within us will swim to what once we both found
i miss you
the way you understood me
the way we were young inside each other new
the way we cried each other from out our pasts
from under snow to burning sun we rose from our pain
two separate deserts we walk through each others minds
my heart turns my eyes to rain
as i walk in sunlight you lye awake in the night
my mind becomes lethargic with melancholy
in my blackest skies you still shine through my sight
you wake my sleep beside each new lover
at the moonlight i stare
and it haunts me because
i know you're still there.

in your sleep i dream

as you sleep my eyes gently watch your dreams
soaring from your heart like meteors
showering through the skies of your mind
i see land in your body
your skin the color of naked earth,
you, my ground to discover, dance kiss and stretch along
i come to you as ocean comes to rock over millions of years
my hair falls and sweeps across your chest like the curls of white water
tumbling, i am wild upon nature's perfection as your sands tingle and winds moan
my water lays upon you with you inside me
together our shapes and textures ever changing through ourselves,
creation moving, growing, freeing, new
here, we are as what forms all that is

Glass Eyes Full Of Blood

Your voice it scares me,
Your intensity makes me exhale a river of nervous waves
Tides that overwhelm me until my shore is bleak, naked and renewed
Your dark side is so hidden it is like my mine
You stare at me with fear and I see my reflection like glass Just before it breaks
I sit here waiting to be thrown, smashed against my own suppression
Smashed against my own regret
Break me and cut myself open with the pieces
Cut me ‘til this blood starts to flow
Make my eyes see make my blood cry
Let warm red tears gush down my cheeks
So I may taste this truth, speak it from my lips
DIgest it and bleed on

This Pain

This pain is not my own
Your mistakes I should have left with you
I wish to leave you behind
You are a trick, that mirage in my review mirror
Not here now and never really were
But like my mind I feel you
Sometimes you even talk
Raging through my marrow the way you always burned
Trying to siege my essence
You under estimate, I am more than physical
I am stronger than what possesses me
All you’ve ever had is my body.
I want to end this. I want to write it, crumble it and burn it, all upon your chest as I cry.
Leave it as carcass and walk by.
Leave my nightmares and walk into my dreams.

Screams In My Hallway

There’s a hallway of torture past one of the walls in my memory
I keep the door closed now but I know it is there
Sometimes I still feel it looming towards my peace
It tries to shroud itself in alluring costume
In a multi toned zephyr it appears
Its first touch excites me
But a twist of beauty quickly reveals destruction
Scenes of pleasure and horror blur into one
Contorted bodies attacking helpless faces
Shrieks no earthly hound can cry
Echo in blackness
While a cold red hue hazes an omnipotent eye
There’s a pulse screaming,
Chasing my breath through infinite borders
A tunnel void of structure allows no freedom
The only element is wind without spirit
I must imagine the other doors before I can see them
A door of fire burns the red into heat
A door of ocean rushes the pulse into a calm river flow
A door of air stirs the breath
A door of earth gives bounds to stand ground upon
Stairs of opportunity offer themselves to me beyond
Though the stairs go down nor up
They are only steps of assiduous resolute
I finally covet insight in polished black stones
Throwing nothing but letting them gravitate back
With tidal power
My hallway transcends into a conduit of what I receive
It is flooded with perennial madness
Seasonal change
The awe of nature’s wild inside me
I am a scream of pure reception and release
Breathing rolls over, under, from and in me
Even in this hallway I am still in my home.

I Cannot Slay You

My whiskey has run dry
Now that I've let you let me cry
I want to taste your love
Outside of my dark cove the tears drip warm
They fill me with transcendent neutrality
The absence of fear has touched my cheek
This warrior's sword has begun to shine
Now my blade is my reflection
I see now my heart was never mine
This pierce is a touch who connects this river to an ocean
My mind here rests in the calm of emotion
Your omnipotent eyes rain into my soul
And I open to receive your gaze
Upon my vision with you I am whole
I claim no mercy, I claim no vengeance
You hold me as a child of no experience
Your heaven lays resting in infinite grains of phosphrescent shores
I strewn my worries upon your grace
But again I stand to kill you
And you whisper to me in the harmony of salvation
I love you and you may love me
Feel my blood run through you
As I give life more brilliant and crimson then the stains of your pain
You stand before me naked
There is nothing in this moment to shed
For I disolve your armor of shame
And I dress you in this truth
You never fought alone
For when your eyes closed my breath fulfilled you
It is I who gave you the tide of turn
The blanket of water to engulf your flames
I never turned away as the tide pulled you to these shores
I gave you the ocean as your tears when you could not weep
And I poured through you my patience when you exhausted into sleep
This moment is your invitation
I lay down with you in rest
Feel me in your arms as I forever hold you to my breast